It's been a while since I've posted. ---- I wrote that sentence an hour ago and since then I've just stared at the computer trying to think of what I could possibly say next. I have no idea. I know I've said this before, but the purpose of this blog was to be a journal of my thoughts. The good times, the bad times and everything in between. Well...I'm very hesitant to post my thoughts because I don't want people to worry about me. I'm fine. I really am. I'm just trying to figure things out. It's proving more difficult for me than I remember it being.

So what's my update? What's new with me? I don't know. All I really want to say right now is 'oh, not much. what's new with you?' but when I ask myself 'what's new with me?' I know there's a lot. Things have changed. It's been quite a year. It was a year ago this month that I finally decided to MEET other people like me. It was terrifying for me, but it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I don't know where I would be today, trying to figure this out on my own. It's great to have friends to rely on who know exactly what I'm feeling, or even friends and family that don't know what I'm feeling, but who share their gift of love and compassion with me. I love all those people. Yep...that means you! Anyway, a lot has changed. Things that I have always been so certain about in life...I'm now doubting to some degree. I'm not completely out of faith, but I'm sure running lower then I should be, but I'm still moving.

I really don't have much to say right now, but I decided to share this clip. This video always makes me laugh!







Tonight, I realized that I'm a lot like those people. It looks so easy to us for them to just keep walking. For me, I'm the king of making things harder than they really are. Anyway, kind of insightful :)

I just wanted to share this here, hopefully you'll have a few minutes to read it. A friend of mine wrote this editorial back in January and BYU's Daily Universe finally published it. I loved it and I think you will too. I hope that it helps both those that struggle and those that don't to have a better understanding of this issue. Check out the PDF version of the paper here. It's on page 3. ENJOY!