Update:
Published by A.Struggler under on Monday, August 10, 2009It's been a while since I've posted. ---- I wrote that sentence an hour ago and since then I've just stared at the computer trying to think of what I could possibly say next. I have no idea. I know I've said this before, but the purpose of this blog was to be a journal of my thoughts. The good times, the bad times and everything in between. Well...I'm very hesitant to post my thoughts because I don't want people to worry about me. I'm fine. I really am. I'm just trying to figure things out. It's proving more difficult for me than I remember it being.
So what's my update? What's new with me? I don't know. All I really want to say right now is 'oh, not much. what's new with you?' but when I ask myself 'what's new with me?' I know there's a lot. Things have changed. It's been quite a year. It was a year ago this month that I finally decided to MEET other people like me. It was terrifying for me, but it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I don't know where I would be today, trying to figure this out on my own. It's great to have friends to rely on who know exactly what I'm feeling, or even friends and family that don't know what I'm feeling, but who share their gift of love and compassion with me. I love all those people. Yep...that means you! Anyway, a lot has changed. Things that I have always been so certain about in life...I'm now doubting to some degree. I'm not completely out of faith, but I'm sure running lower then I should be, but I'm still moving.
I really don't have much to say right now, but I decided to share this clip. This video always makes me laugh!
Tonight, I realized that I'm a lot like those people. It looks so easy to us for them to just keep walking. For me, I'm the king of making things harder than they really are. Anyway, kind of insightful :)
3 comments:
I love that video you posted. It's so true - so often we are too close to the problem to see the obvious solution.
I love the video! I think I understand where you are. I have been there before and sometimes return. My faith went from never doubting, to no faith at all, to simple faith in basics. I am okay knowing that I don't know everything like I once thought I did.
I still struggle with my faith in some areas of the Church, but my faith in God and His Son is back, and it makes me happy!
Good luck my friend.
Hey man, it's good to hear from ya again. Of course, it's totally up to you to share whatever you want here, but at the same time it can be good to talk through some things with other people; you know the difference between being in and out of the closet, that principle works for some other things too. (Of course, not knowing exactly what it is you don't want to discuss makes it hard to say for sure, but maybe consider it).
If you don't mind me asking, by doubting, do you mean doubting the church's stances on some things, doubting modern day prophets in general, doubting a testimony of Christ, or something else altogether? Because those are very different things.
The point is, know that you're not alone in whatever you're going through. I hope you can work through it, whether on your own or with close friends or even with your blog readers. Know that I'm with ya.
And that clip is definitely a classic, it had been too long since I'd seen it, thanks :)
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